We all recently learned of the loss of your sister, Flower629. I cannot stress my condolences enough. It is very sad for us all to lose a fellow blogger, but when she was your sister...
I feel terrible typing this...I feel as if I am making you hurt or sad. But I do know what that's like. I've lost my grandmother and aunt to the same cause. Deepest condolences to you, and "Never stop beliving in miracles." (My philosopy and motto)