Hello All-Several of you know my story up to this point. Just wanted to update on recent events. I have 4 children and the oldest is 5. The last two are 2 year old twin girls. No twins in the family and no fertility treatments. Recently became pregnant again. Had 1st visit and ultrasound this week. I am actually pregnant with twins again but have a vanishing twin. That is where one twin embryo actually never develops into a viable baby. The dr. explained it as it really didn't die because there was never a heartbeat. But when you can see on the ultrasound the seperate sac and the seperate embryo there, just much smaller, it still gave me the same feeling of a miscarriage. I did miscarry with my 1st pregnancy. We always just pray for one healthy baby and I guess that's what we are getting. But to see that other one there and know it'll never turn into anything and that at the next ultrasound it may not even be there at all, it was just really heartbreaking.
Everyone says twins are so hard, etc. But after this happened I looked at the twins I already have and just think which one could I live without.
Anyone had a vainshing twin? I am sure my feelings about this will get better with time. I think it was almost easier when I miscarried because we planned on having other kids. Now we are planning on this being the last, not sure I want that now.
Thanks,Jennifer

Jennifer-

Just want you to know you're in my thoughts- it's never easy to lose a baby, no matter how or when it happens. I felt the same sense of loss when one of my IVF attempts was unsuccessful. Best wishes with your newest little one!