Not looking to be on tv. I have a lousy medical condition, not contagious by the needle, but its taken about everything I have worked for and up to until age 33 (almost 34). I live in a small town in NM and there are artists here that aren't bad, but I've grown partial to Miami Ink's work.

I hid away enough to for one last trip and one or maybe two tats. I know what I want, but if it doesn't make sense I'm openminded. I can't tell if the waiting list is months, years... my progronosis is lousy regardless which doc you talk to.

I adore anime, angels, Star Wars and deep thinking and not forgetting I'm a kid. I have no one in my life romantically. Severely treatement resistant depressed patients can make the choice to do so, but I have decided to remain alone. My ability to communitate is rapidly fading, my memory gone from shock treatment. Maybe a tattoo is too materialistic, too selfish, but it would mean a lot to me.

Does the shop take appointments, walk-ins, or do you have to be a beautiful person without a mental health problem to get in? Do you have to win a contest or wait in line?

In the 13 years I've been severely depressed I've never been suicidal or diagnosed dangerous to myself or others. I can't explain why I want this ink. My body isn't the ugliest, but its nothing you'd want to see scantily clad on a beach.

Any advice? My energy is fading fast, but this would mean the world to me. I don't want cameras or anything, just some ink, from someone--all your artists are so amazing. An anime angel in the shoujo style and maybe one other single color small symbol on my neckline. I'll find the money, if theres hope to get in with any of the amazing artists.

Dying to live...Noreen