Hello everyone..It's me Mozart,

Please don't be sad by my dying. I am happy now. I have all of my relatives with me, my pups, who I never got to know until now, Kinks is here and Carlos who is busy being the Casanova of Heaven (his new title)....and of course, my mom. She and I have had a wonderful talk and we are just fine. Thank you, everyone, for thinking of me, for writing to me and caring so much for me. I never really thought anyone cared. How nice to know that I am appreciated. I do love all of you and I am looking down at everyone all of the time. I am also having a wonderful time with Wilson. He is my best friend and my partner. He is a really nice meerkat. Please be sure to support my family, the Whiskers, as they really need you. In closing, please be kind to Meerkata. She is really having the hardest time with my passing. Part of my journey has ended but someday we will all be together. I just went first as I was very tired and lonely. I am none of those things now. It is really quite wonderful here.

I Love All Of You,
Your Friend Forever,
Mozart

I thought that maybe I was done crying, I was wrong. What a lovely tribute!!

Christopher969

This is such a beautiful letter and I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Thank you for mentioning me in your letter, your right I am having a very difficult time with her passing.

I think it's because I can relate so well to her struggles since I too am always on the outside looking in with my family. Since I am single I'm always the one that strives to have what my other family members have yet in this game of life that wasn't the cards that I was dealt.

No matter how difficult my life has been I continue to try and keep a positive outlook on life thinking that just around the corner I'll get a break.
It's kind of funny that my life can be compared to a Meerkat but it is.

In my family I've always been known as the caring one especially when it comes to children. My niece might as well be my child since she's with me more than her own family.
Unfortunetly I'm unable to have children of my own so I understand Mozarts desire to comfort those who don't even belong to her.

Sorry to keep rambling on here so I'll just end by saying though tears are streaming down my face there's also a little smile on my face knowing that Mozart got everything she strived for too bad it had to take her dying to get it.

RIP Princess of the Kalahari

Angie aka Meerkata

My heart goes out to you. Your kindness will not go unnoticed. I too have the same thing with my family. My sister no longer is involved in my family. She and her husband verbally abused my dad him while he was suppose to be living there. He lasted 1 week and I found him a new place. He is going to be 90 yrs old in Jan. I cannot believe that his own daughter, my sister, would do that. Very Very mean and sad. She always treated me like I was 2nd best. Sound familiar? I found a wonderful husband, met on the internet, and we have been married 3 years. We are both 55 yrs old, both never married, no kids..just a bunch of pets. Who would figure that. Anyway, sorry everyone else for telling my life story. I aplogize. Angie, if you do want to come out and go to FE with us you are more than welcome. It is May,30th 2008. There is a spot open for you.

Oh Chris 969, that was so beautiful. I can't keep the tears from flowing. Our beautiful princess. I hope we can make her proud and happy by taking care of the meerkats here who need our help.

Dear Meerkata and Christopher969,,I think that so many of us relate to these precious meerkats because we see parallels of our own lives in theirs. This site has brought us all together, to share happiness and sadly, sorrow. I pray that better days are in store for all of us, meerkats too!

You both have caused tears flowing down my face too. Meerkate you sound a lot like me and Chris, you given me hope. Maybe I'll be lucky enough to meet someone too.

I have to stop this crying as I'm going out in a couple of minutes and its hard. What a beautiful letter! I'm sure its true.

What an amazing letter from our little Mozart. It made me cry even more than the one from Flower. christopher969 you have certainly channeled the heart of this little girl. I think there are more than a few of us who have related to her since the show began, anxiously watching each episode and waiting for Mr. Astin to mention her and assure us she was okay. Unable to have children of my own, I too cried when motherhood seemed to be always out of reach for her. I have been thinking so much about her that I even had a dream about her. I have not been able to shake my sadness. I worry so much that she might have suffered at the end. I think about her and I just can't stop crying. I'm sorry. I just can't type this. My tears are running down my face and I can't see the screen. My cats think I'm crazy. I just wanted to thank you for your letter, it really does help. I am going to save it with your letter from Flower. Good night little Mozart. I hope we meet someday soon.

Ah, you guys are so nice. You know after thinking about her death, each week I was hoping and praying that she would find happiness. It was just not meant to be for our little Mozart. Yes, her death could have been painful but it was also the end to her suffering...and we know that she suffered for a long time. Now, she is at peace and no more hurt or loneliness for our little girl. In her lifetime she accomplished more than most humans do. She stood by Shakes and Carlos and Kinks. Many humans turn their backs on others when times are hard. Not Mozart. She was always one to be counted on. I think everyone on the planet should watch the 1st 3 seasons of MM and see what see stood for. I am proud of everything she did. I do not think she would change a thing. She would just be Mozart. And that in itself is enough for me.

Christopher969,

I'm sorry I didn't respond sooner, but I needed to get off the computer last night cause I was crying so hard I couldn't type anymore.
I would love to go with you guys, that would be one heck of a birthday present, my birthday is May 28th. I also really appreciate you assking me, I promise you I'm not a nut case (well maybe when it comes to our meerkats I am).

Just a little history on me I'm 45yr never married and no children. My father is 78 and lives with me. I have 1 brother and 1 sister who couldn't be bothered with my dad and his medical condition so I moved him in with me. He's much better now but there's no way I would tell him to leave. My mother passed away when I was 23 which was a very difficult time in my life especially when I learned I had cancer 3 months after she passed.

Up until recently I was a work-a-holic but then was injured at work, I'm currently waiting to go for surgery, but they wanted to try these epidurals and shots first. There's not a whole lot I can do other than some housework which is why I'm on this site so much recently. Before I would just come on weekly for about an hour now I practicalluy live on here.

I too am sorry about rambling on about my life but to anyone else reading this I have found a true friend in christopher969.

Hope to hear back from you soon. In the meantime I will add my poem about Mozart onto your thread.

Burrow Hugs to all
Angie aka Meerkata

I just turned 55 in Sept.finally able to order off the senior menu. Ha Ha..Anyway, I only work a few hours a day in town and I like it. More socializing than actually working. You know coffee a little work...talk and more work...etc. My husband is 56 yrs old and works for the state of Calif. So, if you can come out next year that would be great. You will love it at FE. Hope everything goes ok with you health wise. Keep me posted, ok?

Janelle aka: Christopher...my husbands name..

Janelle

I know what you mean about a little work a little coffee a little talking and back to a little working.

I would definitely love to come out. I read on FE site that for an additional amount you can spend the whole day with the little kats.
If possible I would love to pay whatever amount it is to give us more time with them. It would also be my way of saying thank you to you and your husband for allowing me to come with the two of you.

Since you already have the reservation for May 30th would they allow us to spend more than just the 2 hours with me paying the additional amount up front or wont they allow you to make that change? Can you contact them or would you like me to contact them and ask? That's if you want to spend longer than the 2 hours.

It sounds like you and Christopher have been to FE before. Here in my town there's a zoo about 20 minutes away with Meerkats but the poor things have to share their home with porcupines. I wish they had a better enclosure but I don't know how much luck I'd have in trying to get that changed. I haven't found alot of people on this board that are from Chicago to start up something similar to the WCM and ECM and try and make things better for the Meerkats at Brookfield Zoo.
But I feel so honored to be able to get up close and actually feed and play with the Meerkats at FE. I can't wait I feel like a little kid on Christmas morning.

Regarding my health I have 2 herniated discs in my neck and have alot of difficulty with my left arm and hand and just recently I've lost felling in my right hand.
These shots and the epidural hasn't done a darn thing to help and in my opinion is just a waste of time and money but that's the route my doctor wanted me to try first to avoid surgery.

Angie aka Meerkata

Princess of the Kalahari

Sweet little Princess
so small yet so strong
Strived for love and acceptance
but something always went wrong

Resilient little Meerkat
always looking for love
First Carlos then Wilson
Her search ended when she was called from above

She was needed in Heaven
for her tender and caring ways
But our tears will keep falling
for many more days

God needed our angel
for she was loving and brave
Mozart like Flower has just one request
please don't cry at my grave

RIP darling Princess our hearts will ache for what you could've been and what you could've had. It's so sad that it took death to achieve everything you strived for.


I've tried to post this around on the different boards but it would be so much easier if they just had one Memorial board for all of us to but our feelings on. We could have one common area to go to rather than trying to remember what board we've been on.

Angie aka Meerkata

Meerkata, I urge you to have that surgery. I did 7 years ago for my herniated discs(C6-C7) and haven't had any pain since and believe me before the operation I was in horrible pain as you are in. It was wonderful. The worst part was wearing that neck collar for 6 weeks but it was worth it. I also would like to add what wa sweet poem you wrote. I loved it.
BTW. Christopher, I thought your letter was beautiful, I think I forgot to mention it earlier.

Christopher 969 what a beautiful letter...I watched a program over the weekend and the woman who got over the loss of her son said she did so because she believes " Always blessings, never losses". I wish I had that feeling inside of me but I I am still so sad. I come here to connect with all of you as I still feel a deep sadness over Flower's and now Mozarts death. I will focus on your letter though. Those beautiful little spirits have touched my life so.

alyse928: Thank you. We all feel the same about our little girl. It is nice to come on here and talk about Mozart. Makes us feel closer to her.

We love you Mozart and always will

Thank you also, wolfeemypuppy. We love our little girl don't we? It will be sad to not see her in the beginning when they say... Meet the Whiskers....Rocket Dog, Zaphod etc...

Meerkata: I will contact FE and find out what they say and if I can change it. We may have to reschedule for another time but I will let you know what they say, ok? Sounds good though!

wolfeemypuppy

Thanks for the advise. The 2 that are herniated are C4-5 and C6-7, but the EMG also showed C3-4 messed up as well. Pretty bad when your only 45 and feel like 105. Right now I'm having to deal with alot of BS from my company because it happened in Jan. my boss knew about it but failed to send me for medical help. She didn't write up the accident report until July. I finally went to the doctor on my own in Feb. at first they thought the problem was my shoulder so I got shots for that and then a MRI which of course was normal. I then went to an Orthopedic doctor who right away knew the problem was my neck. So I got the MRI and the EMG then he sent me to this doctor who's doing the epidural and trigger point shots (they hurt like all get out).

So now the company is denying me workers comp because they said I failed to report the injury. I didn't fail to report it my boss did, but for now everything is going thru my own insurance. I'm suppose to be getting Short Term Disability thru my work since Workers Comp denied the claim but they haven't paid me since I've been off work which began Septemeber 7th.
It's really been a nightmare I guess they think I don't need the money like I don't have bills to pay. Thank God I have some savings otherwise I'd be up the creek without a paddle.

Maybe that's why I feel more emotional about poor Mozart I can truly relate to her struggles.

Sorry about rambling about my problems but it's good to vent especially when I have people here that truly care.

Angie aka Meerkata

Christopher969

Thanks I hope that it's not a inconvience to you, but I thought it be great to really spend more time with them and kind of get the feeling that the researchers have to be able to watch them for an entire day.

Just let me know, I'd like to give you my personal email and phone number but I really don't want to post it here for all the world to see do you know of any way that I can get that to you other than posting it here?

Angie aka Meerkata

I think maybe wcm may be able to help us out. I will check with him. Also, I can always set up an email and once I receive yours I can delete that and go to my regular email. Let me email wcm first. I will do this tomorrow, ok?

Meerkata_ me too. I went from doctor to doctor trying to find a cure for the pain but all I ever recieved from them was prescriptions for pain killers until finally 2 months later I finally found a Doctor who sent me for a MRI. Wow what a god send. My MRI reveiled the herniation at that level and voila,less then a week after my operation I was totally off the pain killers for good, hooray! I was so happy to be off them because I hated taking the pain killers. I was always nausea to the point where I wanted to throw up while taking them and they certainly didn't seem to help either.

I'd also like to add I didn't have any plates and screws inserted, instead he just placed the bone graft into that space so it could fuse naturally. The only down side to that is you have to wear the hard collar 24/7. I was,however, allowed to switch to a soft collar when I took a shower once a day. Oh and he didn't take the bone graft from my hip bone, instead he used a freeze dried one from a cadier(ok everyone, lets all say ewwww). Trust me you'll never know the difference if they do use it but you will if they take the bone from your hip. Now that's horrible pain. I talk from experience trust me. I could barely walk for a week after they used that hip bone graft for a diffrent type of operation I needed a few years later on my jaw. I had to use a walker.
Again the hard collar was the worse part of the operation for me due to the fact that I'm very claustphobic( hopefully you're not) but believe me after a week I was completetly use to it. I wish you the best of luck on your operation and trust me you'll be so happy when it's all over.

And Christopher (Janelle); Yes I completely adored Mozart and I can't express the heartache I felt when I found out she had passed. She was very special and I miss her greatly. Your letter really touched and chheered up my spirits. Thank you very much.

to christopher969..
very sweet...

i dont know how the people that film the show can sit there and watch the meerkats die like it has happened in this season over and over without thinking about leaving the project.
the pain that some are feeling from being viewers, i pray for those that film this and have to see it first hand...

Hello all—

What a wonderful letter and tribute to Miss Mozart, the Princess of the Kalahari. Thanks so much, Christopher and everyone else, for your beautiful and heartfelt words and thoughts. I’m officially a newbie to the forum but have been watching MM since S1, episode 1, and yes, I admit, have been “lurking” here for some time (sorry!) ... I’ve had to take in S3 in bits and pieces and even had to take a break for a while from watching ... this community has been such a great place to turn to! Since MM first aired, I’ve lost two of my own “Sun Angels,” including one, aka My Little Lion King, very prematurely to cancer (my heart is still broken over that loss), but I also ended up adopting a sweet little stray who is my Flower-Mozart baby. With all that and more, I was trying to find a good time to join the forum so I could contribute regularly but the time always seemed to get away from me. I guess anytime’s a good time, right? I will plan to share more at the “introductions” thread and elsewhere as I make my way through everyone’s posts!

-- Lexie

I just read meerkata's poem and wanted to say how beautiful it is. I think I saw your poem on another board but this one is so nice and personal that I wanted to comment here. Everyone has said such beautiful things and not only about our little girl but also to each other. I am praying for all of us that we find peace. Meerkata, my husband has same problem with the vertebra in his neck but refuses to do the surgery. His hands shake so bad he can't hold onto a cup and he's always in pain. He's 58 and very stubborn. Please let us know how you are doing. I will pray especially hard for you. I don't pray much and I figure when I do, God is probably surprise