hey ok so i need some help...

I have been riding for about 9 years. I’m 15 now. My family comes from a long line of horse people and ride western. I took lessons for 2 years western then my family moved(were military). I did not ride for a while only when i went to see family. Then i get my first horse she was for me and my brother(Dixie). She was a wonderful little girl and beautiful. But i quickly out grew her also i wanted to make the change from western to English. So again i had no horse to ride. About five months after that i meet a girl out at my barn where we keep Dixie. She is 25 and has rode hunter her whole life and was willing to give me lessons on her horse so i took lessons from her for about 3 months. Then i found out my uncle was selling one of his horses a AQH he was a wonderful horse out on the ranch and i always rode him. So we buy him thinking i would not be hard to train him as a hunter well me and my trainer. i was and am the only person in my family to ever ride English. So we get him and he was horrible kicked bit and would not let us saddle him it was bad. so finally my trainer got him saddled him and go on... it was the ride from h**l. I still think to this day it was because he was used to being on a ranch not in a stale on grass not grain. So we sent him of to a trainer for 3 months and got him back he was a different horse i mean still a pain in the a** under a English saddle but wonderful i western. So we work him hard every day and he slowly improved. I was happy i could control him under the trot and over cross rails. So my trainer entered us into a flat- walk trot class at a local schooling show. It was amazing and he was wonderful but we did not place because i was on the wrong lead. So i went home very happy! After the show my family went on vacation for 3 weeks and my trainer could not get out to ride him but once a week. when we came back school was about to start and i had little time to go see him. I was out on the trail with my trainer and a friend and blaze(my horse)got down and tried to roll. we took him back to the barn and called a vet he had a mild cases of colic but i could not ride for 2 months. After the 2 months were up i got back on and no joke was on for less than 2 seconds. So now only my trainer can ride him . Then i start ride at a big barn where i pick up my game. So i had been riding there for 2 weeks when my new trainer tells me she is leaving because she is having problems with the owner of the barn. So some one new takes over my lessons. This person did not know me and put on a more advanced horse who is huge almost 18.2 hands( well that’s big for me) and she pushes me in to a canter for my first time under English saddle Wilson takes off and its going good till he spokes and throws me. I broke my arm and caller bone. So now i don’t trust any one at the barn and have a mad horse on my hands. My family keeps telling me to switch back to western and keep blaze but after all my work riding hunter i really want to keep riding. I know your at risk when you ride horses but i am really scared to get back on. I would love to keep riding hunter and show but i am 15 and now cant canter or jump over any thing but a cross rail. I don’t know but i feel like giving up. I just want to know if any on is in the same place that i am. And do you think i would be able to make it in the show world? sorry it was so long.

your fear is understandable, falling off any horse is scary enough, especially off of a tall one. I can understand your fear, about two years ago my horse took off on me when we were in a huge hay field, and i ended up falling off and breaking my pelvis bone, it wasn't that bad of a break, but i couldn't get back on for a while. When i finally did, it was the scariest thing that i ever did. I suggest you start off by getting on a horse you trust a lot, one that you know is calm and trustworthy. The first horse i got back on was the horse i fell off, but it was mostly my fault that she took off and i fell off, i still trusted her a lot. It'll take a long time to get your confidence back, it took me over a year, but don't give up, like i said before, start off with a horse you really trust. And i'm sorry, i don't know how long it would take you to make it in the show world, i only ride for pleasure

Thanks!!But i need to find a horse i trust.

I have also have a simalar experiance that you had.I use to ride weastern and so did most of my family.Then I wanted to try something different so I started to take lessons in English.When I rode weastern, I was on a trail ride on the beach and my horse got spooked and off.My horse tripped over a hole and I almost fell off,holding on with my legs I didn't have my feet in the stirups and he would'nt stop.It wasn't my horse,thank god.But when I had to get back on my horse I was a little scared. It took me about a month.This is nothing like your story because I didn't fall off ar brake anything.I think you need to get on a horse you know. When you do that,I think you'll get to show again if you get a horse you know well.